My husband Barry took his life on Dec 23 2017. He had been acting strange pushed every one away and that wasn’t him he loved the outdoors and his family and friends. It got to the point were he cried to me that he was having thoughts and needed help so I made appt. But the next one wasn’t soon enough. He hung himself in our garage and I was the one to find him. He was the strong one i never thought he would ever do something like this. I struggle every day i’m on meds see doctors an even write him letters every night.I lost my soul mate my love an my world and I will never get him back. It hurts so much and i will never be the same the hurt and the pain is unreal and so hard to move on from. I work as a nursing assistant and my residents are what keep me going that and my children. If it wasn’t for them I would be gone my self just to be with him.