It’s been 303 excruciatingly painful days 7,272 hours since you completed Suicide 😭it’s been 307 days, 7,368 hrs since I found your lifeless body hanging in the shower, a day that is etched in my heart & mind forever, a haunting memory that is impossible to forget 💔it’s been 311 days, 7,464 hrs since I held you alive, felt your beautiful warm heart beat against mine as we held each other, since I’ve felt your amazing hugs, the ones that you just won’t let me go…. since I’ve felt those loving kisses on my forehead, since I’ve smelt your smell, heard you laugh, or heard the words I still long to hear ……. “ I Love You Ma “ I can’t put into words how much I miss you, how much I love you & how much I will forever love & miss you … I just do.
Everyday is a fight to tell my heart to keep pumping because my mind is always telling me “Go to him “
It’s a constant battle waging war within, I went to sleep sobbing till my head had its own heartbeat that I could hear like a bongo drum, constant & rythmic, I awoke crying, you never know when the waves of grief are going to crash into the rock walls of my shattered heart, maybe it’s the rain today & thinking of the days we’d lay back & watch movies together… I don’t know how to live this life without you… all my hopes & dreams belonged to you & watching you grow into the gorgeous soul you were… I just miss you. Time has flown it’s only another 62 days 1,488 days & you’ve been gone 12 months, yet it still feels like yesterday. Time is but an illusion & as long as it’s moving this fast I know I’ll be with you again soon, that is my only solace. Am I Grateful for 27 years with you ? Yes I wouldn’t change it for the anything. I have no regrets, A Mother’s Love is unending & unbroken tied still by the invisible chord that leads to Heaven. 🕊🐬
Until we meet again my Prince I will Always & Forever Love You & Keep Your Memory Alive.
💜“ SUICIDE IS EVERYONE’S BUSINESS “ 💚
If your contemplating Suicide please remember
“ YOU ARE LOVED & YOU MATTER “
