Anon – Austria

ME – I found me in me by loosing me completely!
I was in France working too much as usual and had mobbing and bossing in the company which was too much as high sensitive. Far away from home, far away from my friends, I lived alone in an appartment – working day in day out – which I was actually used to growing up with believes that working as women makes me more valuable. I got more and more depressed, stopped eating, drank more alcohol and lost weight. My working collegues where not very nice and made fun out of me… and i remember when i begun to check how I can kill myself – due cutting the pulse in my appartment – with a razorblade. I informed myself the how sothat I definitiv dont survive as I got more and more depressed not seeing any sense in my living.
I new THE day when everything changed due one small thought: I cannot committ suicide due my mum who will be upset about it. It was the day too where I begun to know by heart that something greater out there wants that I stay alive for something different. I knew what I felt as depression isnt mine at all as I am actually a happy person.
I didnt commit suicide nor did harm on me but visited courses for mind changing. Today I created my own nutrition style and own coaching/therapy style nurturing others in bad times… and one day I will become a family therapist accompaning others in bad times as I know what that means, feels and shouldnt be…. at all!
My credo is now: “BE simply me. No matter what. Nothing else matters.”
I AM worth living and fullfilling my dreams, hopes and wishes.